Red hands

I made her that way

I made her

I made

I

 

From the bottom

To the highest

From love

To murder

To her art

And my searching

 

Why she?

 

She was something

She had that in her

That everyone was dying to have

But she also had past

The past I wasn’t aware of

She wasn’t too

But then the old book was finally open

I saw red hands and blue eyes

And then I knew

I made her enter the past

She wasn’t ready to face

I made her fall in attention of love

 

She drew me red hands

 

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3 days in a cage

She drinks coffee three time a day There is no other way she can stay awake

She locks her depression away

But her shelter is falling down

 

She tries to seek for help

But her scream is without sound

And she tries to seek for help

But her voice isn’t loud enought

And she dives dives into the croud Where people alike

Locks themselfs inside…

 

And she askes herself again

Can anyone hear her pain

But there is no answer at all

Cause she is left all alone

 

She tries to seek for help

But her scream is without sound

And she tries to seek for help

But her voice isn’t loud enought

And she dives dives into the croud Where people alike

Shouts the pain aloud…

 

Yep it should be a song but I don’t really know 😀 enjoy

Feeling alive

I’m okay with living a dream

I’m okay with her being just the dream

Don’t stop me and don’t wake me up

The dream I am living became my life

I am happy even then I myself know that this is not reality

But at least I’m happy with the way I feel know

The dream is killing me because I don’t want to wake up

The sun is burning me up

In a good way

I feel more alive in this dream then in actual world

But the main reason of me here is She

The one i found here

She was vere interesting indeed

But lonely like I’ve been those 3 years

But know we are not lonely anymore

We both have poisoned dream

But it is ours

Too slow

Too fast

You reach my hand

For the first time then

 

And now I’m cold

I’m freezing like a dead soul

 

How can you take all I have

And make me love you anyway

How can you say that

The love was never there

 

And in the end

How can you lie

To yourself, to me

To the world around

 

Why did you hurt,

Why did you create this

And then scattered everything

Into small pieces

 

Did you forget

Did your heart die just for a second

Of thoughts of  life without me

Was it easy to fool me

To love me, and hate me

 

The only question I want to ask

Is it you or me

Who caused it?

 

And maybe I’m a fool

Because I can’t stop loving you…

 

Hihi it was a loonnnnggg time 😀 I really want to post everyday, but now I’m working and I don’t have time to just sit and create Something. But I promise to myself that I will write more 😀 see you people who read my smth 😀 or just I don’t really know.. Okay I will stop embarrassing myself 😀

 

 

 

 

 

I am not fine, okay? I lied, I am lying and I will because I can’t erase you from my mind and I don’t want that to happen. Because you are the one I lost, The one who made me feel needed or the one I was always happy to be with. I want you back…

I am so sorry

I didn’t want to end things like this

I’ve made the same mistake

I wrote you that I’m sorry

I just miss you and it hurts like hell

I need to talk to you

I am constantly thinking about you

Always worrying how you are doing

I image fake reality where everything is fixed

Where I can talk to you, be with you, smile with you

I am really sorry if I was the mistake you made…

 

Lost colors

The colors I lost

And the new sounds I found

Can you feel my lost?

Can you touch my sadness?

Can you hear my colors fading away?

How many times I’ve tried to catch them

But like stars in the night sky, they traveled far away

Maybe one day I will become one of the shining stars in the sky

AND EVENTUALLY, I WILL EXPLODE AND BECOME A COLORFUL MESS

I wish…

 

 

 

Short

I close my eyes

And dive to the place

Where I can finally rest

Just me and my thoughts…

 

P.s. Have a good evening 🙂

Never found

We lost our way

We became our slaves,

The ones we killed

They’re screaming for release,

For the pain to go away.

It doesn’t matter now

Because when we wake up from this dream

Everything will be gone,

Or maybe not

Maybe it is a reality

Reality we cannot run from

so let the mind kill,

Let her slaughter….

 

 

“Something.” in my language

AÅ¡ leisiu man pakirpti sparnus,

Kad galėtum pakilti aukščiau.

Aš rankų nerodysiu saulei,

Tik slėpsiu jas tamsoje.

AÅ¡ noriu tik gero,

To šildančio jausmo.

AÅ¡ mirties tik nenoriu,

Nenoriu priimti to jausmo, kurio tau reikės.

Juk sakiau, kad sugersiu aš ugnį,

O tada išgarinsiu mus supantį vandenyną.

Padarysiu aÅ¡ kelią prieinamą visiems…

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A song that inspired me to write this: https://youtu.be/Gv6TDGpKmxI